Testimony for Easter Sunday

9 April 2023, Redemption Hill Church

Good morning everyone, I am really thankful to be given this opportunity to share my testimony this Easter. I am Ying Ren, most people call me by my surname Mok, and I am married to Belinda. We have two children now, Emma and Caleb.

Not too long ago, I was a double South East Asian Games gold medallist in the triathlon and marathon events and a multiple national record holder in the half marathon and 5000m running events. I had endorsement deals from major running brands, airlines, and insurances. Things were going really well.

In 2015, I took a year off work to train in Boulder, Colorado, USA in an attempt to qualify for the 2016 Olympics before starting my Orthopaedic Surgery Residency in 2017. However, one month into my training, everything changed. I developed a sharp pain in my right knee and it was downhill from then on. Despite seeking help from therapists in the US, I failed to qualify for the Olympics and the 2015 Singapore South East Asian Games. In the end, my one-year stint in Boulder ended in disappointment.

I underwent two MRI scans, which found no structural damage in my knee. Despite spending thousands of dollars and hundreds of hours on physical therapy, none of them helped, and the pain persisted.

My pain affected me mentally as well. As a social media influencer, I had social media accounts to maintain. During this period, my sponsorship deals were still in operation.  As such, I was obligated to post about shoes I was not wearing, drinks I was not drinking, and runs I was not running.

Nevertheless, there were only so many throwback posts I could do. I could not fake it forever. Eventually, I was dropped by sponsors, no longer winning five-digit prize money, and no longer being requested to give running talks. Just a couple of years ago, I was on Mount Everest with people clamoring to be a part of me. And with a snap of a finger, all was lost.

In 2018, during my darkest moments, a friend asked me to attend church to seek for miracle healing. With a self-centered desire to fix my problem and get my life back on track, I started going to church. However, I did not truly understand the gospel during this time.

In an attempt to extend my running legacy I even started a startup with a friend that aimed to secure sponsors for local athletes as an agent. I also had dreams of creating a coaching app. Unfortunately, all these decisions came at a cost to my marriage and surgical training. I almost sacrificed everything to stay afloat.

In retrospect, I do not think I was saved then. All I wanted was for running to be returned to me so that I can get back on with my life. I attended church, read, and sang about Jesus Christ but did not know Jesus.

Thankfully, God continued to work in me. Podcasts were my goto for my travel entertainment on the trains. By God’s providence, I was exposed to faithful Bible preachers online. Listening to their weekly sermons had the effect of Hebrews 4:12 - For the word of God is living and active, sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the division of my soul and of spirit, of my joints and of marrow, and discerning the thoughts and intentions of my heart.

By His grace, God revealed to me the diagnosis of my struggles, just like a spiritual MRI scan. He showed me how running was simply a means to feed my desire for the praise of men. Each time I win a medal, each time I was on the front page of the national papers, the high is simply palpable. I had an addiction to the praise of man, and running successfully provided for it.  But that is not all, painfully, through my other struggles, God showed me how this addiction has permeated to every aspect of my life - my marriage, work and friendships - like yeast that Jesus has warned us about.  I had suppressed the truth and replaced the fear of God with the fear of man.

My attempts to pursue success, achievements, and medals through running are merely well-crafted strategies that my mind has come up with to gain the world’s affirmation and to mask my biggest problem of sin.

Today, 7 years on, my knee pain still exists and bothers me daily as I walk down a slope or attempt to run for a bus.   I sin because I am a sinner, not the other way around. Through His word, I have learned that God's standards are infinitely perfect, holy, and righteous, and that I cannot meet them. But at the cross, Jesus did what 2 Corinthians 5:21 says -  For our sake he made him to be sin who knew no sin, so that in him we might become the righteousness of God.

What I received through the cross, is Jesus’s cloak of righteousness and His affirmation of me as His child.  This gift is not because of any successes I have achieved nor the good I have done.  But because of what His Son has done for me.  His affirmation is sweeter than every human praise and louder than every cheer on the stands - and most importantly, everlasting and eternal. Even though I face temptations daily, Christ continues to call me back to Him to receive His love and forgiveness.

Fast forward to the last three years, Bel and I cannot be more grateful  to have settled into this church in 2019. I discovered RHC through its sermon podcasts and remembered listening to Simon preaching through the book of Luke. We came here knowing no one and visited a few CGs before Simon introduced me to “another runner” - who turned out to be Lian Arn. We are thankful for our newfound CG family who have been walking alongside us, and our young family. It has been nothing but an amazing journey to see God working in us both.

The reality is that I was good at running marathons, but the truth is that I had always been running the wrong race. Now that my Lord Jesus Christ has redeemed my life, my deepest desire is to complete the race that He has set before me and to meet Him at the finish line.

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